My first list of top 10 Feelings I want to experience in this Lifetime.

Today I woke up feeling connect to something bigger – I don’t know what it is, maybe a higher power, maybe my heartbeat, maybe a feeling from a previous life – but I felt the need to give myself a big squishy hug and sit in silence for a bit.  Something inside me is helping me see more clear, it told me I need to take better care of myself if I want to help others do the same.

It might also have something to do that I just watched ’30 going on 13′ for the first time yesterday, and it might be the fact that I declared it one of my favourite movies!

I was getting ready to scribble down some notes in my notebook. As I opened it, I came across this title that I wrote down few weeks ago, but never got around to reflect on it.

And because is Sunday, and because I don’t want to be caught up in the Sunday blues – I decided I need to write down few things down, just as a reminder of what I am working towards, but also because there’s not enough time to waste on things I don’t believe in.

With further ado, here’s 10 things and feelings I want to experience before I die. 

  1. Standing at the top of a mountain, watching a sunset in true silence.
  2. My baby kicking in my belly, hearing his/her heartbeat for the first time. This is one of my biggest dream – creating a life. I’ve got a long way to go, but I know in my heart of hearts that it will happen one day. But before that, I want to make sure I’m creating a better place for them.
  3. The feeling of complete madness and freedom you get jumping out of a plane and knowing that actually you’re not going to die.
  4. Spiritual true renunciation. I’m still trying to find my way, and trying to understand and embrace that I am a spiritual being, having a material experience. I’m still learning that is okay to have different beliefs than your family, and I am still learning how to love the Higher Power. All I ask is for humbleness, that’s what I’m working towards.
  5. One of my biggest accomplishments to be having visited most of the countries in the world.
  6. Being financially stable enough to offer my mum a better life. This woman has had a hard life. But she made it work, and she thought me all I know, and has given all she had for me and my sister. Every day I pray I can at least a bit from what she gave us.
  7. I want to look back at my life and smile, because I have done things exactly how I wanted, and everything worked out in the end.
  8. The power to stand up for myself, and realise that who I am is enough.
  9.   Finding my soulmate/ partner in crime. I know ‘soulmate’ is a fairytale term, but I truly believe that we all have someone out there that fits us perfectly.
    And I’m not only talking in the romantic level – it can be a friend, a spiritual master, a family member with whom you always had a strong connection.
    I’m talking about that feeling you get when you met them for the first time – it felt like your souls knew each other, and it felt you did not had to communicate with too many words, because you knew already what the other person was thinking and feeling.
  10. Sending my first book to printer. I’ve dreamt of this one for a very long time, since I used to fill notebooks in primary school with stories. I know I’ll have to work hard, and it will take even more work on a personal level – believing in myself, but I know that it will happen one day.

My only hope for you today is that you play the song below on repeat and make your own list of things/feelings you want to experience in a lifetime.

It will give you perspective, at least I hope so. I’m no expert, but sometimes all we can ask for is perspective. No matter how bad or good things are at this exact moment in time, remember that all is temporary and we truly have two options: create the life we have always wanted to live, or stay silent and work on someone else’s dream ..

And what good will the latter do to us, if we die inside daily because we cannot express in any way our true selves. We cannot afford to loose too many days.

May it be of benefit,


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Sunset-chasing since the '90s
Changing the mental health conversation
Avid reader and writer. This is my little space where I share with the world my feelings and experiences.

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