There were few things I was meant to be doing today. Today was meant to go completely different according to the plans I had made 2 months ago.
Today I was supposed to get up, pack my bag and head for an airport. I was supposed to get on one of those big, scary airplanes and fly away to my mum.
Everything was planned – all my clothes were sent weeks in advance, goodbyes were said and I was done with this place.
Tonight I was supposed to have for dinner my mum’s food and have a glass of really good wine, catching up on life. Instead, I had indian and I was surrounded by strangers, engaged in a not – so – meaningful conversation.
I was supposed to be wrapping Christmas presents by the fire and have hot chocolate that my mum would make for me. I would go to my uncle’s, take the dog for a walk and watch the first snow settle down over earth.
Instead, I was outside, in the rain, hair blowing in a million directions, and wishing I was somewhere else entirely.
Today was supposed to go according to my plan. But then it didn’t.
But as I was walking down the street tonight, making my way home, it hit me:
Life’s like that sometimes.. Your well – thought plans will change in a blink of a second. Your choices will only be your choices, until they aren’t anymore and you realise they are ruled by forces much bigger and much more important than your whole entire life.
Things do happen for a reason. You meet the people you do for a particular purpose. You go through changes, hardship and good times to be shown things. To be enlighten. To be able to grow.
So tonight, as I sit here in the dark, sipping a Southern Comfort and listening to old records, I realise I forgot the whole point of my journey again.
And for that, tonight I need to give thanks. I need to bow to the Universe and open my heart to the destiny.
What will be, will be.
Que sera, sera..
We like it or not.
Things happen for a reason.
“Until you conquer the enemy in yourself, you can’t handle anyone.” ~ Lauren Hill
** It came out of nowhere: one day it was sunny and everyone was out, enjoying the sun and laughing and looking like they had no care in the world. The night took the joy away. The night brought the fog. And the fog brought the cold. The cold brought the rain and the wind. Each and every one soul knew it: Winter was coming. **
The last few weeks have been really interesting and exploratory for me. A new stage in my life has began. I can feel it in my my bones. Change, new goals, family reunions and generally just a good mood.
I took a break from writing because I felt I needed to re-collect myself and reconsider the purpose of what I am writing. But I am back now, and over the next few weeks this space is going to be transformed into something marvellous. I hope you will come back for some inspiration.
But for now, I am going to share with you few of the books I’ve had on my reading list. I’m approaching my goal slowly, and I thought it would be nice to share few of these books with the world. Check out my GoodReads profile for more bookspiration!
On my Reading List this November
1.Revolution by Russell Brand
2. All God’s children need Travelling Shoes by Maya Angelou.
3. Red Dragon by Thomas Harris
4.The power of vulnerability by Brene Brown
5. I am the messenger by Markus Zusak
- Bored Panda, a website about news from around the world. Very informative
- Elephant Journal, which you would notice by now that is one of my favourite sources of inspiration. Like Ever.
- Beautiful music:
- Hannibal, TV series. Probably one of the most gruesome, weird and emotionally draining I’ve ever watched. But so terribly beautiful. Hugh Darcy is at his best.
I hope that you are keeping inspired and positive this end of autumn. I hope that good things are happening to you. And if not, I hope you are learning from the less positive times in your life.
Until next time.
Peace, Love & Happiness,
There’s a meteor shower tonight. A beautiful, magical, dark meteor shower.
Go outside. Look at the sky.
Remember how blessed you are to be HERE.
“And if you feel damned,
just remember that
heroin is made of flowers
and you, are made of
~ Amanda Torroni
An idea came to me yesterday as I was playing the final episode of Season 1 from Judging Amy. The beginning credits was playing, I was having a sip of my coffee and it was Sunday. I felt a sudden rush of happiness and thankfulness for what I have in my life. For being so incredibly lucky and blessed.
Then, last night while I was in the shower (of course, best ideas come while in the shower) I thought of daily things that make me smile. I’ve wrote few of them on my bathroom wall (yes, I do that, I even have coloured markers especially for the bathroom) and I decided to ask my students in the Writing classes today for few more ideas.
The result is as you follows below.
It was an amazing exercise. Especially in my classes today – rainy day, no motivation and on top on that, Monday morning!! Everyone participated in the brainstorming sessions and they all left the class a bit more thankful.
My List of little things that make me happy:
- when I pour hot water over the best ground coffee. That’s what wakes me up in the morning.
- when you get home and your dog runs over, so happy to see you.
- finding tissues in your pockets when you most need them.
- the first few seconds in the shower, when water hits your scalp
- the smell of baked cake that invades the whole house, whenever you bake something
- clean room after a long day at work
- fluffy blankets and hot chocolate
- my sister messaging me (it can be any of your relatives, anyone that cares about you)
- the last bite of a banana (it’s the most delicious one, because it’s the last!)
- clean bedsheets
- sharpened pencils
- mum in the airport
My Students’ list of little things that makes them happy:
- when I find an umbrella in my bag
- corn for breakfast
- a smile from a stranger
- meet someone we like
- 100% charged phone battery
- hot tea in the winter
- looking in my old diary books
- read a funny joke
- laugh out loud
- finishing a great novel
- tidy my room
- ice cream
- a phone call from my parents
- rest day
- FaceTime my sister
- enough toothpaste on the toothbrush
- eating fruits
- sunny days
- taking a nice nap
Of course, this are not all of their answers (I’ve got about 200 students), but only the ones that made more sense to the task. Some of them went all the way (being thankful for families, lots of food etc), but I tried to stay in the ‘small things that make us happy’ zone.
I hope you enjoyed this post, I hope it made you smile a little. If it did, please do share any of your small things that get you through the day.
Peace & Love,
“Different is good. So, don’t fit in. Don’t sit still. Don’t ever try to do less than you are,” she said. “When somebody tells you you’re different, smile and hold your head up high and be proud. And as you’re villain, I would also say — cause a little trouble. It’s good for you.” ~ Angelina Jolie
This concludes all I got to say today. She made a magnificent point.
Don’t settle in.
Don’t fit in.
Don’t be scared to speak your voice.
Stand up tall for what you believe in.
Cause trouble. The world needs that kind of trouble.
Challenge the rules.
That’s how we make a difference.
Start with yourself.
The rest will fall into place.
“I want to say that when I was little, like Maleficent, I was told that I was different,” continued Jolie. “And I felt out of place—too loud, too full of fire, never good at sitting still, never good at fitting in. And then one day I realized something—something that I hope you all realize. Different is good. When someone tells you that you are different, smile and hold your head up and be proud”—she then winked at the crowd, adding—“cause a little trouble… it’s good for you.”
Peace & Love,
“Sisters function as safety nets in a chaotic world simply by being there for each other.” ~ Carol Saline
I decided to start the week with something very personal to me, but also inspired from one of the creative prompts I’ve been researching.
The picture you see above is the last picture me and my sister took before I left for China, few months back.
And obviously, it means a lot to me because it’s a picture of me and one of favourite person in this whole entire world, but also because it defines my relationship with my sister.
It goes something like this: I got her back always, and she’s got mine. No one understands me or keeps me grounded like she does.
Those who have siblings to whom you’re pretty close will understand. We’ve got our inside jokes that most of the times no one gets (duh!), we share those little things from childhood.
This chick knows me better than anyone. And it’s so funny because we’re always been so different: when we were young, she was the blonde one, I was the brunette; she is good with numbers, I am good with words; she keeps me grounded in reality, I help her dream. We complete each other.
And I think it is very important to have someone who you know you can count on no matter what. Even when you fight, or get angry with each other, you know it won’t last. Because there’s a bond there that it cannot be broken. This is how trust looks like. This is how love looks like. And I do love her with all my heart and soul. I would bring her the moon if she asked.
I owe this to my mother – she was the one that always made sure we were close, we shared and took care of each other. Like a Family. And that played a big part in the person that I am today.
I learnt to take care of others, to listen to others and that sharing is a very important human trait to have.
“We hug, but there are no tears. For every awful thing that’s been said and done, she is my sister. Parents die, daughters grow up and marry out, but sisters are for life. She is the only person left in the world who shares my memories of our childhood, our parents, our struggles, our sorrows, and, yes, even our moments of happiness and triumph. My sister is the one person who truly knows me, as I know her. ~ Lisa See
I hope you all have someone to share this kind of love with. If not, I hope you find them.
Peace & Love,
For better and for worse,
no matter what anyone says.
no matter what the demons on my shoulder try to feed me;
this is my fight.
These are my daily choices, my daily fights.
I realise now that the biggest enemy I have is inside of me.
Trying to rip me open and push the good aside.
I realise now that I am more than this body,
that before anything else – I am a Soul..
And that from all the cycles of reincarnation,
it’s a miracle i am here today –
breathing life into this human body.
I realise now, that I cannot change WHO I am,
I need to embrace it.
I realise now that I need to let my SOUL embrace every particle of this flawed body –
Let it hug it and transform it.
Let it breathe life into anything I do, anything I touch.
I have the power to heal.
I have the power to destroy.
The same power that each one of us have, every day.
It’s called CHOICE..
The choice to put up a fight or to give up.
The choice is mine. The choice is yours.
So take your time. Make your choice. Own your choice.
“Don’t seek. Don’t search. Don’t ask, don’t knock. Don’t demand – just Relax. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, you start Vibrating with it.” ~ Osho
“A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and gets to bed at night, and in between he does what he wants to do.”
~ Bob Dylan
What makes you smile?
What kindles your spirit?
What are you looking forward to every Monday?
Where does your mind wonder when you’re not doing what you’re supposed to do?
We all got that thing that sparks our imagination, that gives us power to move on; the thing that enlighten us.
And maybe some of us are lucky enough to call it our jobs, but if we’re not, let’s work toward making that reality..
Don’t be scared – just take a leap of faith. Believe in yourself.
It’s terrifying, I know, but oh – so beautiful.
For me, the thing that it’s been making me feel alive over the last few months, has been Teaching.
I’ve always been very interested and passionate about Teaching (my mum is a Teacher – it’s in my Blood!), but since I first stepped into a classroom back in September last year, my life changed.
I finally felt like I found something I am good at, something I just loose myself into.
That has only happened with a very few other things in my life (writing being one of them), and I decided that today I should share a bit about it.
In the hope that someone out there reads this and is inspired to follow dreams..
First of all, I want to tell you about few people that marked my life. People whose jobs were once upon a time to teach me things in a classroom. People that I called at some point, Teachers.
I thought about this, and I’ve came up with 5 people..
Of course, all of my teachers influenced me in a way or another, but this five thought me very important lessons.
The first person is my first grade teacher. This was the woman who gave me the greatest gift – she thought me how to write and read – who made me be more ambitious and whom job I used to play all the time. She is the first one who made me think about the fact that I want to be a teacher one day. I was 7 years old then.
To the second person I own the fact that today I have the proficiency of a native English speaker – my first English teacher.
My third person is my Chemistry teacher from 7th grade.. She thought me that teachers are Humans too. And they can be your friends too.
My forth person, is my Literature teacher from high school. He thought me about the importance of respecting ones culture, and the fact that to read, means to exist. He thought me that life is a poem that I can re-write every day.
My last person, is my Law teacher from university.. He thought that you can still be a rebel and work in the Media, that you can always, always bend the rules and make them work in your favour. You just got to try.
Teaching for me, is something magical.
Even when I have a bad day or I’m feeling sick, or just tired – the moment I enter my classroom – everything switches on.
I hear a murmur in my heart, I get butterflies in my stomach with every ‘Good morning, everyone’ I say, I smile at myself when I see my students coming into my classroom excited for a new lesson.
They are the reason why I try hard to make it work – I’m not a by-the-book teacher – I don’t follow rules, but I put myself in their shoes – I ask myself what would I have wanted to learn when I was where they are now.
Teaching is the thing that gives me purpose.. Even on bad days.
And I think that’s important.
It’s important to do something you love, to feel like you are doing something for others, because at the end of the day, you will loose the money, you will loose the youth, you will loose the power.
All you will be left will be the marks you left on others.. The ways you helped create good, the times you gave a part of your soul to the Universe, and never expected anything back.
That’s the true wealth. Everything else is just an illusion.
Reflect on that..
You have the power to make a Change. Don’t expect it from someone else.
Just go out there and be the Change.
What are you passionate about..? Leave a comment and share it with the world!
Peace & Love,
Today marks a week since I started this challenge. And honestly, I thought it will be harder to sit down and write every day at the same time (I wanted to do it at the same time so it becomes a routine). But funny enough, this has been the best part of my week so far. Sitting at my desk, with a cup of coffee, music blasting in my headphones and me and my own ideas.
I think it has given me more clarity, it’s like a blanket that I snuggle into.
It also gave me the possibility to look back at my blog and see how I’m evolving in terms of writing.
And because of that, and because it’s a rainy and because it’s Sunday, I thought of putting together a collection of some quotes that I have hanging around my room and notebooks. Quotes that pick me up and give me inspiration every day.
I suggest listening to this amazing song while you read this:
“It all begins and ends in your mind. What you give power to, has power over you.” ~Leon Brown
“You’ve got to know your limitations. I don’t know what your limitations are. I found out mine when I was 12. I found out that there weren’t too many limitations if I did it my way.” ~ Johnny Cash
“To stay with a broken hearth, a rumbling stomach, with the feeling of hopelessness and waiting to get revenge, that is the true path to awakening.” ~ Pema Chodron
“I intend on spending every single penny I make changing and travelling the world. That is all. Adventure awaits.” ~ Rachel Brathen
“She was never crazy. She just didn’t let her heart settle in a cage. She was born wild, and sometimes we need people like her. For it’s the horrors in her heart which cause the flames in ours. And she was always willing to burn for everything she has ever loved.” ~R.M. Drake
“You don’t always win your battles, but it’s good to know that you fought.” ~ Lauren Bacall
“Trust that life will always, always take you where you need to be. Even in the dark moments.” (elephant journal)
“My heart is drumming in my chest so hard it aches, but it’s the good kind of ache, like the feeling you get on the first real day of autumn, when the air is crisp and the leaves are flaring at the edges and the wind just smells vaguely of smoke – like the end and the beginning of something all at once.” ~ Lauren Oliver
“I believe in the good things coming, coming, coming …” ~ Nahko Bear
I hope your Sunday is amazing. I hope you spend it in mindfulness, reflecting on new dreams, more inspiration, less laziness, more actions.
Spread Love and Positiveness.
Remember, it’s just a bad day, not a bad life.
Peace & Love,
“The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.” ~ Chuck Palahniuk
Today I want to talk about something that I’ve been applying to all the areas of my life. And even though sometimes I forget about it, something happened yesterday that put it into perspective again.
I’m talking about the fact that life is made up 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you react to whatever happened to you.
The fact that it all depends on you. We get all this things thrown at us every day, all this tests: all the bad news, people treating you badly, things not going your way.
It’s up to you how to react to it.
Not anyone else. It’s up to you if you choose to let it bring you down, and get depressed and cry in a corner about it.
Or it’s also up to you if you choose to make that your starting point.
The point where you pick the pieces up, you start fighting and live the life you imagine.
We’re all in this together.
We all have bad days.
We all have good days.
But don’t chase the future and dull on the past too much.. Remember that what you have is this moment, and this moment should be the most important of them all.
Remember, when things were bad, that moment of silence – that moment when only for a nano second you understand. You realise and are conscious that there is a bigger force than yourself our in this world.
That you are only a tiny molecule of that world. And by doing your part – by not giving in and choosing to fight – you contribute to the future of other people, just like other people, by choosing the fight – choosing the grind – play a part in your own little universe.
This is your time.
Don’t waste it.
Fight back. Change what you can change, but mostly adapt. Adapt your mind and body to different situations and people.
Be flexible like rubber, but don’t forget your true form – you are a Soul – you are a divine creature.
And when everything really seems overwhelming – that’s when you sit down and Breathe.
Just Breathe …